2 years

may 30 marked 2 years in germany. to commemorate the occasion i spent some time looking back at pictures from when we first arrived, and honestly, was completely freaked out. i actually still have a physical reaction when i think about those first few days – terrified is the best word to describe it. i was TERRIFIED. we were running on no sleep, no friends, no idea where to eat, no clue about the language or rules of the road or anything. i still remember so clearly my first reaction when we landed at the nuremberg airport … i have ruined our lives. 

thank god the story has a different ending. that deep-rooted fear only lasted for a moment in time, and while it’s still as fresh in my mind and heart as if it were yesterday, i gratefully have a much different perspective. i can’t yet laugh about that first terrifying week (i still get queasy when i think about it), but i can smile at those memories, and can send a reassuring whisper back to my scared self, “don’t worry. it all works out. and it’s AMAZING.” 

it really is amazing here. i still sometimes pause in wonder and awe at the life we’ve built, all the way across the world. it’s still hard, and scary, and can be overwhelming beyond measure. but it’s also beautiful. there is beauty in the friends we’ve met, the journeys we’ve made, the things we’ve seen. there’s beauty in knowing wen and i are living a life of no regrets … of saying, “yes!” and “let’s go!” and running away from fear and towards adventure.

i know germany is just one chapter of our story. one day we’ll pack up this apartment and all of our things and stories and memories and head … somewhere. we have no idea what’s next, or where, or when, but for now, we’re going to life this jourmany fully, beautifully, entirely.

xo from nuremberg.